Happy 1st Halloween Addy

Addyson's first Halloween. We're all going to Lewiston. Josh and I are leaving earlier than my mom so we can see his Grandpa Dave. I guess Addyson wants to start the party early its 6 and we are awake! As I made my way back out to Josh's grandpas house I didn't realize that we were going to his parent's to show them Addyson's costume. I think that Addyson was sick of changing into it and out of it the first time at thier house. We didn't leave until later and my mom ended up being right behind us on the two hour drive to Lewiston. It was really stressful because everyone wanted us to do something, like Josh's gram, I love her to death, but she was really stalling us and I don't think my mom was happy that we didn't get to see many people, but oh well. Our main goal was to go to The Hartig's house because when they lived up on the hill kind of by my parents we use to go their every Halloween to warm up and eat popcorn balls Mrs. Wilma Hartig would make. It was special, Addyson had her first sucker there. I think she loved it because now she tries to steal her cousin Justin's suckers. I was a little worried about her having sugar at five months. But it helped her relax with all this teething business. I ended up departing from my mom and going to dinner with Josh's grandpa Dave, even though we were suppose to have lunch and not dinner but it turned out OK, even though I am still upset Addyson didn't go see family in Weippe or go with Justin out and about, but our last stop was the Heintz' house where they were having their Halloween Party. Addyson was so tired she just stared at people and then Mindy, my good friend, rocked her to sleep. It was a good first Halloween when we arrived there. We didn't get back up on the hill until 1 in the morning and Josh made me drive home and I have no clue how we made it hope, just as long as it was safe!

Fall 2010; Our Travel to Idaho.

We ended up leaving the following morning. Which I still am tired from that previous night. Addyson has been teething, so she's more cranky. The trip started out good, due to I just woke up and I wasn't exhausted yet from the trip. We stopped a few times. The dogs were driving us crazy along with Addyson's screaming. You get use to it but it takes a few miles before you do. I am glad we just made it. EVERYONE made peace, so Josh's birthday was decent. Except they sort of have done what I wanted them to do all along have a "FAMILY" thing, except Josh's sister's ex-boyfriend/friend (whatever he is) was there, drinking! Which I wasn't wanting to allow in the first place. I don't like how when they were leaving Nicole was actually going to let him drive (as far as I know that is how it went) with our nephew Justin in the car. Justin loves Addyson, he wanted her to play with her, but she can only do so much, even though she thinks she can do everything. Last night we also went to my step dads family/my cousins birthday party Mom was showing off Addyson. It gave me lots of ideas for Addyson. One thing that I remember and always will remember the couple with the Eco friendly car the little two seater, had their top back and its like 35 degrees and we are like what the heck and we drove past them and they were all wearing WINTER gear. hahaa I was cracking up so hard! But I think in the end Josh had a decent birthday and I am still having to put on a fake smile and pretend I am ok! That's alright, right?

Happy Birthday to My LOVE!

Saturday is Josh's 21st Birthday.
After all the chaos of his birthday party and how
he isn't going to have one, I hope he has a special
day anyways, and we have a fun first date since baby.
Maybe he'll have a drink to relax.
(oh yes, we aren't big drinkers so this maybe a fun time for him)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Joshua Michael, I love you!

& we're off.

We're leaving for Idaho, our other home. Well not until noon since Josh has a PRT which is where they get tested on their running, push ups, and set ups, see if they are still in the NAVY standards. I wish it was canceled so we can make it to the "Big Community Halloween Carnival." I'm excited to go spend time with my family. I am really excited to see my Grandparents. It's not as fun when you go home, everyone is moved off "the hill" (my home town is on a mountain) and moved down in "the valley" (Josh's home town) but since we'll be in town a couple times I might have to make an appearance at a few houses. Maybe go trick r' treat at Ian Stemmys house (aka Stemrich, a childhood friend) I know his mom wants us to go to her house, shes an amazing person. I am also excited that the book fair is going on, I am wanting to get Addyson some books for Christmas, even though I haven't read her all the books Great Grandma Lohman gave her. Yesterday we spent the entire day packing and cleaning the house in case Nicole and our nephew come back here for a visit. It was really hard to do everything with a baby who knows what she wants, and if she doesn't get it throws the biggest fit ever, yup that would be Addyson! In the end we got it done. The car is stocked except a few items we need for the morning. We got some people to watch Calvin but I think we're going to take him, Just feels like we should, so our car is going to be fully stocked with one small dog, a screaming baby, a nervous husband, an annoyed mommy, and a big hairy dog. Its going to be a GRAND trip. I really hope we enjoy it though. Memories, right? But as for the family issues, they have took a turn for the worst so we are really nervous for going home, and I feel bad because Josh's sister is getting in the middle of it and I wish she wasn't because its hard enough. But luckily she's trying to be fix it girl, which I think it's going to take a lot. I just want to focus on what makes me and Addyson happy, and all this drama isn't. I really wish I had someone to talk to besides my husband. With Mandy gone I've tired to be around other girls, Megan works, Ashley just doesn't really seem like she wants to hang out, and Josh's co-worker, Witlow, she hung out with me for a little bit before they all went to the movie. I just feel so lonely. I guess this is a military wife's life. And it really sucks when your semi-close friends that you had in school and all your life don't text you back! I hate that. Haha, its hard enough to text with Addyson, she likes to grab my phone. FUNNY MOMENT: Addyson is obsessed with Paco, as I've posted a lot lately. Well she's been hysterically laughing at him, I get all teary because its just too cute to hear her laugh. I just love it. So Paco better watch out he is definitely going to be in for it when she is crawling. So I pray we have a safe trip and an actually smooth nice visit to Idaho. And we're off....

& so it's Wednesday.....

Josh goes on leave today. I am excited to have him here to help me with things. I am a little mad that he left me to go hang out with his friends. I seriously was going to lose it. We talked for an hour, I didn't get anywhere. He's learning I guess as time goes on and so am I. Since Josh's mom's "depression" crisis, she didn't call him back. I just don't think I could ever leave Addyson on the deep end and keep thinking somethings wrong with me when there isn't. I don't know if this is their whole "I'm not crossing a boundary" thing, but its honestly ridiculous. They might contact him before we leave. I just need to move on from it but I just can't, I'm so angry. Mainly because I know they don't really care much about Addyson. I just don't understand why they wouldn't want to know how she is doing. My mom asks like EVERY DAY but that's just her. So we'll see if this trip is going to be gumdrops, lollipops, and chocolate trees. Then RUMORS play a part in this whole thing. My sister has recently adopted a rumor about herself. Apparently I am going to be an Aunt. Don't worry it's not true. That's just the bottom of the ice burg. She actually smokes weed all the time, even before school. She's baked constantly. Yeah, Josh's sister told me that one. I sometimes feel like its Josh's Family VS. My Family. Ya know? Especially since they use my family to watch their grandchild. I'm pretty sure my father (who doesn't get involved in anything what so ever) has seen Josh's nephew more than he has, ever. Don't get me wrong, Nicole (our nephews mom) and I have a better relationship than I thought we would ever have, but there are things I disagree with and I am sure she disagrees with things I do. There are somethings that I get with this famliy but this is one issue that I am never ever going to. It's one that bothers me, and has for many years. I just want to see where this trip leads us and hopefully the outcome will help me push past it. When I look at our little girl I am so overcome with JOY! She is the best thing that has ever came into our lives, and if they want to miss it that's their problem. As my mom would say "She knows who's the best grandma in the world," yes sadly she says that, she's head over heals for this drool machine!

"stressed" is "desserts" spelt backwards

This weekend didn't go as planned. We did have our scary movie night in honor of Halloween but I still felt that it wasn't enough. Josh's friend invited him to go to the movies to see Paranormal Activity 2 but we all went, once again I was buy myself taking care of Addyson. I don't mind it sometimes but I get lonely enough during the week. Not only was it one friend but one of Josh's co-workers which is also a female went to the movies with them as well. Talk about a downer, knowing my husband was practically on a "friend date" not only with a male but a female as well and I was stuck with Addyson. I gave up so much to be a mom and why can't my husband just give up a little more. Even if I didn't really want to see that movie because I hated the first one but still I just wanted a little more consideration. After they finally got out of the movie and my butt was practically stuck to one of the chairs in the food court I was a little more than upset by that point I was kind of mad. I did buy myself a cute American Eagle sweatshirt and I got the third degree on that one. On the way home I didn't know anything about the movie so I tried making conversation and NOBODY talked to me or answered me. I felt completely excluded. I had a picture in my head while I was getting spit up on my shirt that girl was having a lovely time sitting in the middle of two guys, and I was right. I shouldn't let it bother me I am sure if Josh would have a secret relationship with a girl by now it would have happened, but I just feel like I just don't think Josh understands how I feel even though I repeat it everyday to him. So after that, I felt a little depressed and started making all kinds of things. I made cupcakes w/ pumpkins, I made snicker doodles, and then I made sugar cookies and froze some of the dough for later. I am stressed (did you know stressed is desserts spelt backwards?) because I have so much to do and I have to do it all by myself. I feel like I should just put on a cap and start calling myself "super woman!" I am sure a lot of moms/wives feel this way. I better get use to it. So then SUNDAY comes and guess what, I am all alone with just Addyson. Josh just HAD to go play the new "Fallout" for playstation at his guy friends house. So Addyson was cranky I wanted a break and yet again I am right about how Josh can't handle Addyson. Five minutes and he was screaming for me to get her. I am just so tired of everything. I am not looking forward to going home and being close to his lovely parents. I stay over here and they can stay far over there. They haven't called to apologize, to see how Addyson is doing, all they have done is text Josh to tell him that his grandma fell, or he needs to get licenses for hunting or something like that, controlling? His grandma said that I was in his mom's radar, whatever that means. I just don't know what else I can do for these people. I am tired of trying. So when we are home Addyson and I are going to see the family that truly cares. Even my brother who is busy doing 15 year old stuff still takes time to care. So I end this post with the thought that I think it's almost time for Aunt Rose to come and visit, I can feel her coming, and that is probably why I am so emotional.

A little bit of this and that...

Addyson's personality is showing, she loves to be independent and loves to venture around. She isn't close to crawling but she can sure balance on her stomach, swing her arms, and kick her legs like she is swimming. Last night I put my swimmingsuit on and put her in the tub with me. It was so fun, she sat in her bumbo and was having a good time floating around and what not. I thought it would be weird to do that with her but I did have a swimming suit on I just was probably sitting in her urine. Which luckily Josh was available to take her so I could shower afterwards. She has been going to bed at 7:30 - 8:00 and has been taking one nap a day if I am lucky I can get her down for TWO good naps. Taking care of a baby is hard work, I thought I'd get lucky and be able to bring in some money when I found an advertisement for a babysitter. Although I did forget to see that she was a Junior in highschool, she wouldn't be available when I needed her if she was at school. So I think my idea of waiting until we move is a good idea. I really regret not working during pregnancy. Knowing my luck I'd be on bed rest how fat Addyson came when I was just doing outdoor activities, but again, I do regret it. I absolutely love the fall weather. I love having to cuddle and have winter clothes on. I am not very in love with summer clothes, I hate showing my body, well now I do. I am so sore from working out but I am slowly doing it today on my own. I can't look like this when I go down there. I am sure I'll stand out from being so WHITE, I am definitely looking forward to a tan (not so much skin cancer). It's now the official count down for our trip to Idaho. We have eight days. My mom is really excited, me on the other hand am still dragging my feet. I called my mom crying because there are still things that are being jabbed at me and it just needs to be put to rest already. I am glad that my husband is supportive and our relationship has done a 180, maybe a 360 since last year. Going home not only is going to be stressful but ALL my friends moved away. I am glad one of them is closer now so I hope to see many this time I'm home, maybe keep the stress to a minimum. Not only am I lovin' fall, but I am really excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I spent an hour just looking at different Christmas ornaments and decorations. I really want the Willow Tree set that has the Bible story of Jesus' birthday. I just love it. Only problem is its pretty expensive. But that is one thing I want is the Willow Tree figurines as well as the ornaments

Pink Shirt Day - Addy & I

We realize that some folks are observing National Bullying Prevention Day by wearing purple to support the GLBT community. We encourage everyone to wear whichever color that starts a conversation about the importance of bullying prevention and the reduction of suicides. By working together, we can put a stop to bullying of ALL people in ALL places: kids and adults, schools and workplaces. Pink Shirt Day is a ...day to come together to make a difference in our country, promote tolerance and create a community of acceptance. Over 160,000 kids stayed home from school today because of bullies. Too often, bullying goes unreported and is perpetuated by the stigma associated with seeking help. In fact, in many cases, bullying can lead to suicide. Pink Shirt Day is LifeWays' inaugural event to promote bullying prevention in our schools, homes, workplaces and the internet. We are wearing PINK on National Bullying Prevention Day (10/20) to say to others, "The end of bullying begins with me!" Why pink? In 2007, two high school seniors in Nova Scotia, David Shepherd and Travis Price, stood up for a fellow male freshman student who was being bullied on the first day of school for wearing a pink shirt. David and Travis heard about it, bought a bunch of pink shirts, handed them out and texted their friends to wear pink. The next day, nearly the entire student body was wearing pink. By wearing pink, we'll be telling the community that bullying is not okay. No pink shirt? No problem! You don't have to wear a pink shirt to show your support: it can be as simple as a pink necktie, t-shirt or jewelry. Join us on October 20th to take a stand and lend a hand. Together, we can save lives.

Personal Trainer in my Future?

Yesterday I started working out but I am letting Josh help me at home. BAD IDEA. He should honestly be a personal trainer just not my personal trainer. I am sore in my abs and my "love handles" but I am not liking working with him, I just feel that he looks down on me and as a husband he shouldn't have to see me in my "working" out mode. So after we got done he told me he'd fine me a personal trainer at the gym. I really hope he does, I hope it doesn't cost tooo much. I want to be in good shape before we move to California. He said he are going there unless the "dealer" decides that he doesn't need to be there and he is up for picking orders again. We will see. But man, a personal trainer like Jackie off that one show it would be worth ittttt, I need to look good again.

Californiaaaaa

After all the confusion on where we would be moving our little famliy of three we finally have an answer almost. Josh text me this morning saying that he chose by ship and both of the ones he wanted to pick were located in San Diego, Ca. After I read the text I was excited. Then I looked down at Addyson and started getting teary. We will be miles away from all our families & our good friends that we've made here in Oak Harbor. Does it even snow there? I hope we can make it home for Christmas so that we can have fun sledding and build snowmen. Although I would love to spend Christmas with just us three since we are now starting our own family traditions but it's nice to be with your love ones when its Christmas time. Last year, The Howells & the Johnsons were so kind to invite us over and made us truely feel like family, it was so nice of them. This isn't set in stone yet we won't know until November.

we are like the three musketeers

Today we haven't been really doing much. I have a great big pile of laundry to fold and put away. Josh has been playing his new XBOX games he got with the money from his Grandpa Dave, his mom's biological father, and Addyson has just been screaming and playing. Yesterday was fun we looked at XBOX games for hours and of course I think I might have to get Addyson a new christmas dress if she doesn't hit a growth spur soon. She sure does love Paco! She watches his every move. When Paco comes and sits on my lap Addyson reaches for him. I don't think Paco likes Addyson as much. She is still a tiny girl in 0-3 & some 3-6 mo. clothing. I just can't believe that she'll be 5 months old and its been 21 weeks since I was in the hospital with her. I haven't had any energy. I wish I could just feel good about myself and eat better and maybe I will be energized. I am going to try and work out until we leave by going to the gym again. I haven't been for two months, I can't even look at myself in a mirror I get too depressed. Mainly because girls my age are SKINNY right after they have their baby and I am still a cow. Next week we will be on our way to Idaho, I am dreading it, but Josh is way excited to go out and be mountain boy. I finally get to post pictures of Addyson with her first two pumpkins. She wanted to stand in a couple. She's silly. Also, yesterday we took the dogs to the "dog park" just a block away but when we were looking for it I think we must have walked eight blocks. I really wish I had Mandy here she is the ONLY girl that I hang out with the most and actually know a lot about. I wish the other girls I know here would hang out with me. The navy's birthday was last Wednesday, October 13th, I totally forgot. The Navy Ball was held right behind the Commisary on the Seaplane base in thsi building that has a ball on top, haha, made me laugh a little since the "Navy Ball" was held at the building with a "ball" on top. Only a blonde would think that was funny.

Pumpkin Patch - Fall 2010

We all decided to go to the Pumpkin Patch to get a little pumpkin and get some fall pictures. We love Trista! Her camera is amazing. We got there a little earlier than Mandy & Trista. So we just went around and looked at all the different things they had dressed up. Addyson barely got a nap yesterday and I was suprised that she did so well. As for the pumpkin patch, they had some crappy pumpkins, well they were good ones just a little green. I love fall, it was beautiful blue sky but not too hot and just a tad chilly but the sun warmed you right up. Josh & I also got a carmeled apple they had there from "The Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory" (Yes, I had a bite even though I should stick to the "diet") It was delicious, Josh has not yet tried it, He was too full from dinner to eat it. I am glad we got to go, I was going to go next weekend, but I thought it would be best to go this weekend and then next weekend do some deep cleaning. We might even do that this weekend, who knows. I can't believe its almost time for us to go to Idaho. A shout out to Mandy for doing a good job editing the photos, the one of Connor & Addyson w/ the "first date" on top, made me giggle a little. Our babies are toooo cute, & Brady too!

I have a bad case of MUFFIN TOP; save me!

I think I am the ONLY person in the ENTIRE military housing that puts a big orange "S" in their front window. I was going to make a spider web but its hard to do something like that when I am here with a baby by myself. She usually has a high pitch scream that drives me crazy so I avoid trying to have her do it. But "S" for STUART :)

On the other hand I had a break down last night. I don't know how many husbands tell their wife they are ugly. OK, So before we get all mad at Josh, we have been having little "funny fights" at each other and I think last night it went to far. Josh ended up saying I was ugly and other things that shouldn't be mentioned. I was really upset and started crying. He knew I was crying but didn't really "know" I was crying. If that makes any sense. Lately I've been really down on myself because I keep watching these "programs" in the morning that come on before the actually t.v. shows in the morning start and they were talking about a "muffin" I was like oh great I have a muffin! I still haven't got back down to my weight before I had Addyson, I can get my bigness into my size 7 jeans but my stomach isn't where it looks good. I struggle wearing shirts, I rather wear over sized ones or sweatshirts. I can't even wear my beautiful blue cashmere sweater that I got last fall. I just feel like an over sized muffin top! Anyways, he didn't know I've been hard on myself and it just really pushed me. Made me feel even more insecure. We had a long talk last night and I cried so much I just fell asleep as soon as my head hit my pillow. I need to get more strict with my diet. I am doing alright on it but then I bake a new recipe and it just all goes down the drain for two days. I think if I get the hang of drinking 3 liters of water a day like I am suppose to and start a weekly gym schedule I will get there. I just need encouragement and a push from my lovely thoughtful husband.

Military life.....STINKS!

So I recently posted that Josh was going to pick orders from three different places; Everret, San Diego, and Norfolk, VA.. Josh talked to a guy today and he told Josh that the Everret one wasn't available because the put the ship somewhere else. Now they are saying Bremington. I am going to go insane. I heard that the base there wasn't great, I just now want to move far away. Josh says that he doesn't want San Diego because people are telling him it was hot which we already made the decision to pick that if we didn't want to be here anymore. I feel that he is letting other people besides his family make the decision. Hopefully this works itself out, I don't know what I will do.

Bananas & Christmas

So I didn't realize that I bought the wrong kind of baby food, I didn't buy gerber but some other kind and its horrible. Addyson literally gaggs & throws it up. So maybe in a few days I'll get her something else. She loves eatting off her spoon with her cereal. Its too cute. She kind of blows her lips together and the cereal goes everywhere. Josh and I just love her to pieces. Recently I found that this house is so crappy. I had to do a survey for the military housing and I didn't really score them high. My "master" bedroom a.k.a. the spare room, has a wall that seems to be rotting away. I am not going to be slammed with a big damage bill when we leave. Josh says we are going to be doing a complete deep cleaning. I need to clean my carpets having two dogs (even though Paco is itty bitty he still makes a mess) doesn't do our carpet any justice. Since I know we are more than likely moving out of this house mom told me to start doing repairs soon so I don't have to do them last minute. Its hard to do stuff with a baby that is rolling over and screaming because she gets stuck. Gotta love her though. I have been really sad, Mandy isn't here so I am basically all alone. It's nice that we hung out with Megan & Gary the other day. It was past Addyson's bedtime but she did good just slept in my arms. I felt like a horrible mommy having her out late.
Tonight we went to the NEX and looked at all the christmas things. We are hoping to have a good christmas and start our own traditions. Mandy's family was so nice about having us and treating us like family. I just love them. I hope we don't move too far away from them. I just don't know what I'd do in another state all by myself without them. It's nice knowing more Idaho people, for some reason it seems like you click more with them. Haha, I think its all in my head, or is it? I love the jammers they have for Addyson's age but not her size. Maybe the "carter's" store will have something. I might have to buy a new christmas dress which stinks because we already got her one but its tooooooo big. Way big. Then we went to Wal-Mart. Addyson had a blast playing with the toys. We had to carry her around that store because she fell asleep in the NEX and it was only 6 o'clock we're trying to get her to go to bed at least by 7-7:30. I don't complain though I'm lucky because she sleeps until 6-6:30 except when we got back from the Howell's she started waking up at 3 in the morning. I felt like she was a newborn again. I love it when Addyson "talks" to me, even if its not talking its talking to me. It makes my smile so big I can't make it any bigger. She is just amazing. I am sure my mom is going to be sooo upset if we don't get to come in two weeks. Josh's leave hasn't got approved yet. DANG IT.

Pumpkin Cake (Holiday Spirit, Already!)

Today I took pictures of Addyson in her Halloween outfit, I am excited for the costume, is it Halloween yet?? But to get even more in the spirit we made Pumpkin Cake (Just like a pumpkin roll) and added candy corn in the shape of pumpkins and used green frosting for vines. It didn't look like the picture but it has better frosting then what it called for. I am mad that I wasted 2 cups of syrup for it. Not to mention the four dollars to buy stupid "cream of tarter." At least I wasn't the one who got throw up on them, (Josh). Addyson got over fed while I ran to the store to get cream cheese, that poor little girl, I thought her face couldn't get anymore red. Josh of course was in a bad mood because every time he wears his red shirt he gets Addy's throw up on him. YIKES, maybe he shouldn't be wearing that shirt. It's been one of those days.

Picking Orders Time

Yesterday (10/8) Josh brought home a list of orders he has to pick from. It was really emotional for me. I think its just the ideal of moving maybe further away from my family. Josh has to choose I think five location he is interested in, which I don't know what he is thinking about yet. But the locations are: San Diego,Ca., Coronado, Ca., Norfolk, Va., and Everett, Wa., I am thinking that the San Diego would be fun but I'd be all that way by myself. So I am kind of hoping for Everett. We would only have to move an hour away from where we live now. Plus I have family that lives in Everett that I just met this last summer. I'm very nervous but anxious. But not anxious about deployment!

A Week Away.

- All three babies asleep

- Addyson sleeping like this... too cute

This last week I've been in Auburn with Mandy and her family. It was very fun & nice to get away from the house since I'd be there most the time by myself since Josh had to work late a few times & took a trip to Burlington with his friend Aaron, so it worked out nice. It was stressful though. Two babies and a toddler make for one noisy, messy, house. I felt so bad that Trista & Dell's house was always a mess. They were so nice. We went to Cabelas, Heaven Sent, Federal Way to visit Joe & Mandy's sister (Mandy's sister-in-law), brother-in-law, and nephews. And Max their dog has been cured. He doesn't want to KILL me anymore. He was without his mussel all week. It was a miracle, he also went upstairs with Addyson and I and went into the room we were staying in, I was nervous but he didn't rip me to shreds because here I am typing. Mandy & I also made a cake since Mandy is into making cakes we made one, I didn't have a piece of it. I don't know why I must have forgot about it. It was suppose to be a haunted house, it actually turned out looking like a run-down house. haha. It was good for Addyson to be around other babies. She loves to laugh at Brady and hold Connors hand. As much as I like being home, I miss them. I probably won't see them for a long time. Which makes me sad. My first time leaving Addyson for my own fun. Mandy & I went to see a movie and it was later so Addyson was sleeping as well as Brady. I was worried that she'd wake up and freak out. (she has a bad temper) but luckily she didn't. It was so nice not to have to worry about a baby. Its been five months since I've been able to do something like that. The time we came back from Joe's parents house all three babies were asleep so Mandy and I laid out in the sun in her parent's front yard with the car doors open. Once one baby woke all of them woke. But there was a time when all three of them went down for a nap. I never thought that would happen with all three of them. --LOAD PICTURES LATER

health update.

Well, I forgot that I went to the doctor yesterday as well. I ended up having Mandy watch Addyson, which I am very thankful she did, so in case they had to do test. The doctor gave me a long lecture about me not drinking enough water. I am now one of those people who have to carry around a water bottle 24/7. I should get a cute carrying case ;) anyways, and my ear is filled with fluid. So that is basically I am prone to not only ear infections/troubles, my body gets kidney stones easily now. If I don't pass the stones here soon, I have to have another CTscan. Which I am not looking forward to since it has radiation which makes you at a risk for getting cancer (something in those lines). As for my bladder, they still haven't called to tell me if I have an infection. I'm a mess. Josh thinks it because I'm stressed out because of his family, which I am kind of, because how is my daughter going to have a relationship when they are ripping me into pieces. Again, I wish I had an amazing mother-in-law who I can talk to about anything, lucky me, I don't get one. boo! But on top of everything here is a list of lovely things I can't eat anymore, because my kidney stones might be caused by these foods. GREAT. PEANUT BUTTER & CHOCOLATE = REESE'S, I'm officially doomed!





Oxalates are chemicals found in plant foods but not in most animal foods. Some people are more likely to form kidney stones if they eat foods high in oxalates. You may need to follow a low oxalate diet if you have kidney stones or short bowel syndrome. If you do not absorb fat well, you may also need to use this diet.

Beans, baked in tomato sauce or canned

Beans, green, snap, waxed, dried, pod, runner

Beer: Lager draft, Tuborg, Pilsner

Beets: Tops, roots, greens

Bigelow Herbal teas (hot brew time of 4 minutes or longer)

· Apple Orchard

· Fruit & Almond

· I Love lemon

· Mint Medley

· Orange & C

· Orange Spice

· Perfect Punch

· Red Raspberry

· Specially Strawberry

· Sweet Dreams

· Take-A-Break

Blackberries

Blueberries

Bread, whole wheat

Celery

Cheerios (1 cup)

Chocolate

Chocolate Milk

Cinnamon, ground (1 ½ teaspoon or more)

Cocoa

Cocoa powder

Collards

Currants, red

Dandelion greens

Dewberries

Eggplant

Escarole

Fig Newtons

Figs, dried

Fruit cake (1 slice)

Garbanzo beans, canned

Ginger (1 tablespoon)

Gooseberries

Graham crackers

Graham flour

Grapes, concord

Green Tea

Grits, white corn

Juices containing berries high in oxalates

Kale

Kamut

Kiwi

Leeks

Lemon peel

Lime peel

Marmalade

Oatmeal

Okra

Orange peel

Ovaltine

Parsley

Parsnips

Peanut Butter

Peanuts

Pecans

Pepper (in excess of 1 teaspoon per day)

Peppers, green

Pesticides (?*)

Pokeweed

Popcorn (Oroville Redenbacher, 4 cups)

Potatoes

Potatoes, sweet

Pumpkin (possible irritant)

Raspberries, red and black

Rhubarb

Rutabagas

Sesame Seeds

Sorrel

Soy Products (?)

Soy sauce

Soybean crackers

Soybean curd (tofu)

Spelt

Spinach

Squash, yellow and summer

Stone ground flour

Strawberries

Sunflower seeds

Swiss chard

Tangerines

Tea, black and indian

Tomato sauce, canned

Turnip Greens

Watercress

Wheat bran

Wheat germ

Whole wheat flour

Yams

Yellow dock

Foods marked with * may cause irritation although they are not high in oxalate.

once again, just us girls.

This morning Josh left for Mt. Baker to go hang out with some guys from work. Its good for him to do that, but bad for me because I'm stuck doing all the house work and take care of Addyson. She isn't much of a handful but I just wish he had more time to be with us. Yesterday was fun, Mandy, her kids, Addyson & I, all went to Burlington for a little bit. I did good with not buying clothes but I did buy Addyson a cute gap hat. I am a little bummed because my work out shoes I was going to get are gone! So I am going to wait and see if the NEX gets them back. This morning we also tried "Rice Cereal" with Addyson, she didn't take it very well. So I just ended up putting it in her bottle. She is too funny. Well, I better go clean.