grandpa reynolds

This afternoon I got a message from my brother, Cory, saying our grandpa is in the hospital in CDA having open heart surgery and he isn't doing well. I go in freak out mode and start writing people, calling who ever, and I don't really call them as much as I should only once a year? Since I moved away. I feel like I just distant myself from them because of Dad. I don't get along with my biological father. We butted heads a month before my wedding. He didn't come to my graduation so that's where I totally gave up. I sucked it up and messaged him and I wish I didn't. I don't know why but I think I did it for my grandparents. I know it means alot to them for me to have a relationship and they push me but I do know they have good intentions. I just am sick to my stomach in stress. :

the wait it hard

Waiting to see what is going to happen not only to my husband but my daughter & I is the worst feeling in the world. I've been going to Mandy & Joe's so that has been distracting me but I find my self ALWAYS thinking about it and have to catch myself before I go into tears. I wish there was a way that we can rewind, but that's a long shot. I just pray so hard, I hold my hands together so tight that it leaves imprints. Nobody knows how I feel. My heart feels like its going to explode, my eyes can't take the constant running river, and I can't sleep anymore. I stayed up way later last night, Which I will pay for today. I have a hard time getting off the couch, but today I am going to try and keep busy. I love my husband for "trying" to keep us out of this situation from work, but I hate him for not saying the WHOLE truth and lying to me and everyone he loves. I know one thing, he wasn't involved in this SICK MAN's idea of doing what he did. I am ashamed that we considered him a friend. I am also ashamed we were friends with the girl. This girl she needs a reality check and that guy needs everything that is coming to him, he doesn't deserve anything he has. I could spit on him if I were to be in his present. But I'd probably have a hard time keeping my mouth shut if I seen this girl, who is just an attention hog. Go Figure, this happens to us!

one step forward and two steps back

Addyson has been standing without support. Today Mandy & I tried to get her to walk to one of us, she took one step. Maybe a half of step, but it was a start. Hopefully she is walking by Easter :)

less than 2 months :)

A little less than two months and Addyson will be ONE YEARS OLD! I can't believe she'll be that old! We are so blessed. We have been getting ideas on what to do and where to do her birthday party. My mom has been wanting to help. Some people think I am crazy for planning but all the stuff I am going through I am glad that I am starting now, just incase something happens that is out of our control. After looking at all the different options of themes for this birthday party I decided on planning it around Addyson's favorite stuff animal, her Zebra. Plus it is very popular right now. But I am not going to dress her in Zebra stuff, she needs to be standing out, bright and herself. That is why I got her this cute outfit. I saved 13 dollars or more by getting it at the NEX and they only had two in her size so I got it now. We love you Addyson, hope you like what we are planning.

Cupcake experience 1

two different tips. {round and star, we like the star on the right}

{ Addyson's theme is Zebra with Hot Pink.}

So I thought instead of buying a box of cake mix I would make my cake from scratch. WRONG. I should have just bought the cake mix. Sugar is more expensive than a cake mix and that is what I did when I went to town today. I feel like the cupcake is to salty from the baking soda. I never heard of a recipe calling for three teaspoons of baking soda. Then again I put in baking soda instead of baking powder. YIKES! Josh thinks they taste fine. I made buttercream frosting to top them off. I was mainly practicing for Addyson's birthday. Since I am making her cupcakes and plus I am making her one for her photoshoot in less than three weeks. Here's the finish product!

Hyperventilating Addyson?

I ran to the store to get some sugar for the cupcakes I was about to make. I thought that nobody would noticed I have snuck out. Well, I didn't fool a certain something. Addyson knew exactly when I wasn't around and as soon as she didn't see me in the kitchen tears started pouring out of her sweet blue eyes. She crawled around the house searching for me. In the kitchen, peaked down the stairs, when up the stairs, looked in all the rooms up there, and did that about three times. She was crying so hard she was hyperventilating. I came home and found Josh and Addyson laying on the floor in her bedroom. Addyson NEVER lays down to calm down. She usually is going... and going! So I was like WHAT IS GOING ON HERE? I was very worried. Josh told me the brief story above and told me never am I to leave Addyson with him, he was going crazy trying to get her to stop crying. I rocked her to sleep, it was nap time anyways, and since she missed me so much, cuddling was so special.

First time at the pool 2011

I've really been wanting to go to the pool. After lots of phone calls to make sure the pool was open we got ready and went for a night swim. Addyson was scared at first but then she started seeing other kids have fun and joined them by screaming and splashing and a kickin'. Josh accidentally let her go to far forward and she dunked herself in the water, she got all the way wet. She loved when we put on the life vest and she floated around. Mandy, her mom, and the boys all came to the pool as well. Everyone was having fun. Toooo bad we didn't get a break to go in the hot tub. Maybe one day. We were all prunes by the time we got out of the kiddy pool. We will be going back soon, even if it is just an afternoon swim sometime?

Addyson is 10 months old!

Happy 10 months babygirl. We enjoyed playing outside all afternoon.

Addyson weighs 18.4lbs. She's getting so big! We love you

saying goodbye.

This weekend Josh painted Addyson's room back to white. We don't have long before we have to do it anyways so we just decided some spring cleaning was necessary. I was sad to see the cute elephants to go and pretty green flowers, but it was time. She is getting too big. We're on to the next thing in her life.

A whooole lot of Addyson

Addyson Loves BATHTIME!

Grandpa's Angel!!??

Addyson is now a lover of fruit snacks!

Red Friday; she is decked out!

Daddy took my picture here.

Life

Life could be so good but yet so bad. I feel like my life is amazing. I have an amazing husband who I have been with for almost five years and married two and we just had a little girl, which seems like yesterday we were changing her out of her preemie clothes and not her nine month clothes! Time sure does fly by. I feel old saying that, but really it does. My little family of three has been through so much and we are going through the worst part yet. I really hope that we get through this and survive this. This situation that is going on has made us more appreciative towards each other and our things. Josh works hard to be a good husband and daddy. I am blessed that I get to be with Addyson for her first year of life, and Josh has made that possible. When it comes time for me to work I am afraid it's going to kill me. I got married, got pregnant, and is currently raising our daughter. Getting back into the work force is going to be a struggle for me. No afternoon cuddles, no morning baths, no afternoon naps! I'm so thankful that Josh gets up early and goes to work (being a Sailor) and I get to stay here. He has faced many challenges so far in his Navy career and what we are going through now with it, is hopefully just a little bump! Ok, its not "little" but let's please pretend. Backing up a little, if I do go out and work I hope to take some college classes that way I can get a job/career to support us. Sometimes I hate the fact that Josh is doing everything. I feel like I am so lazy. I know there are many stay at home moms, Ellen's show just proves that, but for me, I really feel lazy. I mean house work, everyday chores, just don't satisfy me, I feel like I need more sometimes. I love my daughter and I am glad that I get to raise her the way I want, that is what keeps me comfortable. In the end I'm just really blessed. No matter what life is throwing at us.

St. Patty's Day

Yesterday was St. Patrick's Day and I of course dressed Addyson in her shamrock dress, unfortunately I didn't get any pictures because she threw up on her dress. She must have ate to much (well drank..) and it just came all up. So I then changed her into some green pants and a cute onesie with two different shades of green and pink poka-dots. She went down for a nap and then after that we went to the Johnson's for some Cornbeef & Cabbage. Addyson ended up getting all messy from dinner so again I didn't get a picture. Maybe I will dress her up again and just take pictures, it's never the same though. We watched two movies and then came home and crawled into bed. It was a fun day.

Johnny And June - Heidi Newfield - Official Video

Ideas.. Ideas!

So I just got an idea. Since I love to sew (but haven't for about five years now, but seriously, I do love it!) and I love making baby accessories. Why not start a little business of selling me stuff I make?!? It would bring in some money and totally be fun! We'll see though, my little family is going through a lot so who knows if that would even work if things come out badly on what we are going through.

hangin' in there.

Everyone here is going through a hard time, well Addyson, she's having a fun time making mom and dad happy. Today I was so depressed about whats happening with Josh that I really couldn't get off the couch. I just curled up in a blanket and laid there and cried the only time I got up was to help Addyson get out of her stick situations (What are moms for, right?). Oh, and I did do some laundry for Josh's seabag inspection tomorrow and I also unloaded the dishwasher. So I wasn't completely miserable. I seriously just want to die. I know it is not the end of the world (wise words from my mom) but to me it feels like it is for some reason. I'm sick to my stomach literally. I wish I could just poor out whats going on here on my blog, but I know that would be the wrong thing to do. It's amazing how much support you get from your "actual" friends. I've definitely learned who are truer than true. Believe me there are people I would like to spit on and say YOU DID ME A FAVOR! But, I can't. We're hanging in there. I thank my family & friends for all their prayers through this hard time.

Just what I wanted to happen, I have JURY DUTY back in IDAHO for 2 solid months. There is so much going on right now in my life, I CAN'T handle anymore.

Along with my daughter eating DOG POOP! Yup, she found Paco's poop before me and was spitting it out once I finally found her! YUCKY


PLEASE PRAY FOR US. I know god doesn't have a bad outcome for my husband. I just pray every single minute that he'll be safe<3

Family day at the Park

It wasn't really a day, we just walked up there and played a little and came back home, Addyson was freezing since her watered down apple juice spelt because her dad hit a bump on the sidewalk while pushing her in the stroller which made her juice fly up and land and get her all wet. LOVELY. But we had fun. Finally, A day when we're not the only parents at the park. Addyson enjoyed watching other kids play as she swung away. I can't wait for SUMMER, I'll settle for SPRING for now. Just no more SNOW!

MARCH - St. Patricks DAY!

I think we're ready for St. Patrick's Day this month. Addyson won't get pinched!

but she might get KISSED!

two things I've learned....

Don't trust people (meaning don't invite them to your family functions or just to hang out) because people are sketchy!

and NEVER eat banana's with Cheerios! It makes it all nAsTy!

Last of our 1st home together.

We're moving soon, so here's a few pictures of what our first home looked like before we have to box it all up. Josh and I met incredible people here in Oak Harbor, we also had a great place to start a family, have parties, such as Halloween carving party, movie nights, kinect parties. It's also where we adopted a dog from a shelter, where we experienced crazy drivers & police right outside our front windows. I personally, have met some amazing women, who I can consider best friends. Even though I was just a stay at home wife & soon a mommy, I haven't regret anything in my life so far, I've learned and soaked up any advise I received from people. Even though we have a few months until moving, I am slowly saying my good-byes to this Island, that to me is known as Home for the last 2 years. The one thing that really puts tears in my eyes is this will always be the place where I brought my new baby girl home, where we experienced so much with her. We got to see her cry, laugh, crawl, roll, you name it, this was the place it happened. Josh tells me this is our life and we have to get use to it, as many times as I complain about this Island, complain about forest city, this is my home. I never though a girl that lived on top of a mountain, who's lived in six feet of snow or more, and had one gas station as a grocery store in the entire town would one day wake up and look outside her window and see a body of salt water or would walk out her window and see a flock of seagulls every morning. We had our ups and we had our downs here but I'm glad we made it through everything and experienced so much as a family. (I'm tearing up now... ) I'll miss our first home together. Our first home where we brought our little girl home to meet Paco and Calvin, where we started our journey as being parents. I'm sure there is a lot to look forward to but this is almost as hard as leaving our hometown, because the people we've met and the things here became a part of us, and who we are. I'll probably come back to Oak Harbor and stock this old house. To the house that stands on Western Drive, you be good to the next family 1384!

- I am excited for the new place, I'm excited for new decor as well. Some of these thing will be missed! TATA!

Dr. Seuss' Birthday!

Yesterday was Dr. Seuss' Birthday. When I was in grade school we use to do so much fun things for it, mainly reading with the bigger kids or us reading to the littler kids & enjoying green eggs & ham. Having a child of my own I want to be involved I want to make it memorable. Since I found a 12month onesie that someone gave to me before Addyson was born and it had "The Cat in the Hat" on it I thought I'm going to make Addyson green eggs (minus the Ham, we didn't have any) and read Dr. Seuss' books to her (what we had) and others as well. She enjoyed them green eggs very well. She loved going crazy on my bed when I was trying to read to her but ended up getting some snap shots of her. When I took her to her room where all the books were she was off in her shoe box. She was just all over. I did get one story in. At least I tried. We had a fun day. Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss, Your books are still good :)