Life

Life could be so good but yet so bad. I feel like my life is amazing. I have an amazing husband who I have been with for almost five years and married two and we just had a little girl, which seems like yesterday we were changing her out of her preemie clothes and not her nine month clothes! Time sure does fly by. I feel old saying that, but really it does. My little family of three has been through so much and we are going through the worst part yet. I really hope that we get through this and survive this. This situation that is going on has made us more appreciative towards each other and our things. Josh works hard to be a good husband and daddy. I am blessed that I get to be with Addyson for her first year of life, and Josh has made that possible. When it comes time for me to work I am afraid it's going to kill me. I got married, got pregnant, and is currently raising our daughter. Getting back into the work force is going to be a struggle for me. No afternoon cuddles, no morning baths, no afternoon naps! I'm so thankful that Josh gets up early and goes to work (being a Sailor) and I get to stay here. He has faced many challenges so far in his Navy career and what we are going through now with it, is hopefully just a little bump! Ok, its not "little" but let's please pretend. Backing up a little, if I do go out and work I hope to take some college classes that way I can get a job/career to support us. Sometimes I hate the fact that Josh is doing everything. I feel like I am so lazy. I know there are many stay at home moms, Ellen's show just proves that, but for me, I really feel lazy. I mean house work, everyday chores, just don't satisfy me, I feel like I need more sometimes. I love my daughter and I am glad that I get to raise her the way I want, that is what keeps me comfortable. In the end I'm just really blessed. No matter what life is throwing at us.