hangin' in there.

Everyone here is going through a hard time, well Addyson, she's having a fun time making mom and dad happy. Today I was so depressed about whats happening with Josh that I really couldn't get off the couch. I just curled up in a blanket and laid there and cried the only time I got up was to help Addyson get out of her stick situations (What are moms for, right?). Oh, and I did do some laundry for Josh's seabag inspection tomorrow and I also unloaded the dishwasher. So I wasn't completely miserable. I seriously just want to die. I know it is not the end of the world (wise words from my mom) but to me it feels like it is for some reason. I'm sick to my stomach literally. I wish I could just poor out whats going on here on my blog, but I know that would be the wrong thing to do. It's amazing how much support you get from your "actual" friends. I've definitely learned who are truer than true. Believe me there are people I would like to spit on and say YOU DID ME A FAVOR! But, I can't. We're hanging in there. I thank my family & friends for all their prayers through this hard time.