whoa-oh stuck like glue.

So last night we had a total meltdown in this house. Addyson ended up waking up at 8. I was in lots pain all of a sudden getting an earache in my left ear. So I am pretty sure I have double ear infection. My kidney is still trying to shoot out kidney stones. Luckily, I got an appointment for tomorrow. I am really emotional. I don't think this family is ever going to be happy. Well me, josh, and Addyson hopefully will be, but in-laws. I wish I had awesome in-laws that I can just get along with. I am pretty bummed. Note to self, sorry doesn't ever work. I think today my walk around the neighbor hood helped me but then I get back here I just want to run away again. I am glad I have been talking a lot to my old friend Jade. I miss her. I am so anxious to go to Auburn with Mandy. I haven't been there since Christmas! I think I am going to spend time with her tomorrow, I wish Joe wasn't leaving. I can't imagine how hard it is. Even a month is going to kill me when Josh has to go through all this. His shore duty is almost up. I am getting nervous now that I am seeing Mandy go through it.

a little slice of heaven....

After not feeling well yesterday, I thought some fresh salt water would do me some good, better than going to the gym and pass put because I can't breathe. So Mandy , her family and us all went on a walk on Base. I really enjoyed it. I thought it was a really nice walk. I'm sure going to miss weather like that when it turns into rain every day.

If I die young...

If I die young... has been in my head all night. Josh called his sisters cellphone because he was getting texts from his mom and sister. And his sister had this song as her ringback. I finally realized who sang this song... It was driving me insane. I finally broke down and wrote my sister-in-law (the only one I talk to from that family) but I finally figured it out. I just can't believe that Josh hasn't heard from anyone in his family until something bad happens, it's been over two weeks. Josh's grandma had back surgery the 21st of this month and she called us on Saturday saying she was ok but her throat was sore. Then yesterday she fell down and was back in the hospital. I don't know why it bothers me so bad that they don't call. I guess I see it that they have cellphones that text from their house at least they could text and see how Addyson is doing. They haven't even cared to ask. I know they are probably reading this and I hope it makes them realize that we're still alive and want more than just to be given bad news, more like we want them to be concerned about not only us but their only granddaughter. My mom is thinking about getting our family pictures updated. This time Addyson will be involved. I am glad we didn't get them done when I was home for the babyshower, I was gigantic. I guess I need to stop letting stupid little things bother me. I was doing alright until they finally attempt to talk by text.

Standing Girl

I never got a picture of Addyson in her Tutu & Headband w/ a matching onesie I was lucky to find at the Childrens Place that was on sale. (We love Sales!) I think she is just too cute. She loves standing but she had to lean on the couch. She is just a little too young and unbalanced to be doing it on her own.

Last of September.

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brady liked taking my camera to take his picture<3.


connor axel & addyson sage.



It's nearing the end of September, I can't believe how fast it went. Lots have happened, family has been torn (well a little) and hasn't been fixed. Josh hasn't been approved for leave that he is suppose to be taken in the next 3.5 weeks. In a way I am very upset because my parents & I have lots of plans for Addyson's first Halloween, and Josh and I are suppose to go on our FIRST date since Addyson has been born, but on the other hand I am happy because I was stressing out about being around my in-laws, I am pretty sure they moved on from it because that is usually what they do, but I don't do that. So I am leaning more towards the staying in home for Josh's Birthday & Halloween. As for health, My kidney stones are still stuck, I had pains when I was at Mandy's house yesterday and ended up taking some meds, good thing I did and was around another adult in case something happened where I couldn't take care of Addyson because of them. I ended up feeling better, but for the last few days I've been fighting a cold, I've been going through more toilet paper than Josh has been. Yiikes! (Josh uses toilet paper for EVERYTHING) My nose is so red from blowing it that I couldn't barely do it anymore. This morning around three a.m. I woke up with an ear ache. So now on top of all this I have an ear infection more than likely. I am not looking forward to going to the doctors next week and having them tell me that I can't do more things. Cutting out chocolate (the best I can...) is hard enough, I've been doing badly, but I am finally getting a hold on not having soda, tea, or any thing coffee related, even though I barely ever drink coffee. Diet Pepsi is my favorite. Addyson is feeling better, she has a runny nose but she has a slight cough as well. She loves hanging out with Connor. They are so cute together, She was loving sitting up next to him. And of course all the neat baby things Mandy has that I have yet to get. I really need to buy a bumbo so she can sit up, she loves Mandy's, the one she has for her boys. After a while though I must admit she starts screaming. I hope that I am able to journey on to Auburn to spend some time with Mandy besides sitting and eating like I usually do. I would like to end September off with a good note, I am blessed to have such a wonderful little family, even if the extended family isn't on the same page, but I am glad that I have Josh & my little girl, and that is all that should matter. And leave September behind, this wasn't the greatest month! (if that makes sense?)

Darlington's Babyshower

I didn't get pictures of the babyshower since I was so busy trying to tend to Addyson and play games. I am glad Josh came with me, it was a babyshower that had both male & female there. I met a few more people. It was nice to get out. I made them a diaper cake. This was my first cake I ever made. We think we should have got them more but it's to late now. It was fun, and I wish them the best with their little girl!

Fever SCARE!

Ever since Addysons appointment yesterday she was one cranky baby! She didn't want to be put down, she didn't want to be touched by her shots. She was just a mess. At 10:30 last night she was making sounds like she was going to wake up and crying a little. So I went and got her and took her downstairs and she was BURNING. I didn't know what to do but leave her clothes off and give her some Tylenol that the doctor gave me and feed her a bottle. She didn't like the taste of the Tylenol the second time I gave it to her she threw it up. I then panicked and yelled for Josh, he comes hauling butt out of our room and into her room (oops, the baby monitor was still on, he thought I was in there) and then realizes we were downstairs and comes down and takes her so I can pick up the mess. I called my mom crying I was just so scared. She was so hot but she was just looking around and had a half smile. So then we tried a the medicine again, and she did the same thing. so I just put a onesie on her and fed her the bottle and put her in bed with us. I forgot she is bigger now and she is taking up more space. It was really uncomfortable for us to sleep in our "queen size" (yea we are dumb for not buying a king) bed. At one I put her in her bed and she slept till 7. I think she still has a slight one. Hopefully today is a better day.

New Baby Girl & New Editing Style

New Baby Girl & New Editing Style


I miss her being teeny tiny.

Addyson is FOUR MONTHS OLD!

Addyson Sage turned four months old today. She had her well-baby check up today.

Addyson Stats:

Weight: 12lbs. 14oz. - 25-50%
Height: 23in. long - 10-25%
Head: 15in. - below 3%

The doctor said that she is developing well, she isn't behind but a little advance since she is doing all these things such as army crawling (more like half army half scooting) and other things. We can start feeding her baby food cereal and then stage one. I'm nervous but Josh is excited. I just think she is growing TOOO FAST. She didn't like her shots though. But then again she was a big girl! She cried of course when she was getting them but right after that when I picked her up she immediately stopped. Ever since we got home she has had a fever and has been fighting her sleep. I am exhausted. I ended up being at the hospital for almost three hours. I took these pictures with my new camcorder Josh got me for my birthday. I forgot to turn off the light so now there is a big bright spot. OOPS!

Another Tattooo..

On Saturday Josh got another tattoo. His friend Dereck (friends since forever) is in the USN as well, and they always wanted to get a tattoo together. When we went to Idaho this last time Josh & Him were suppose to get it but never did due to many things preventing them from doing that. So they just decided he'll get his in Hawaii (where he is stationed) and Josh will get his here. They got the Chinese Symbols meaning "Blood Brothers." It turned out good & also wasn't that expensive for Josh.

Drama Drama Drama & Did I mention DRAMA?

I don't know if I have wrote about my DRAMA I've been having. The bottom line is that Josh isn't having a birthday party. I was planning a really good one too. Since his parents felt the need to "put me in my place," I won't even post what was said because its just too much, lets just say thing will be different now, and we don't even feel the need to go to Idaho. But wait theres always my parents, and my mom is so excited to spend Halloween with Addyson, It will be the only holiday they'll get to spend with her, believe me I have pumpkin carving, Carmel apples, and many more things planned. I think I am more anxious for my date night with Josh. Since the birthday fell through we are just going to go on our MUCH needed date! My mom said she'd be more than happy to watch the little one so we can go have our time. Even though Mandy has offered lots of times to watch her I just hope taking care of another baby isn't going to be too much when I finally take her up on that offer. On top of all the mess with that whole situation, many family members have been having surgery. My grandma - back surgery, My Aunt - female parts taken out, they finally found why she was in pain, Josh's Gram Pat - Neck surgery (having it as I type). Then the last few days I've been suffering from Kidney Stones! OUCHHIE! I thought since the doctors gave me hydros & nausea meds I'd be fine, well I was in bed ALL day SUNDAY. Early Monday morning I was in the WORST pain ever, Finally Urgent Care at the Naval Hospital was open so I went in at 7:30am, and I don't get why Urgent Care would be close at a hospital, I swear, hospitals, what a headache! I still feel under the weather and they haven't passed, yet. Since my life consist of peeing' in a plastic hat and straining it. I am miserable, especially today, they haven't came out & I'm so tired from the meds. I feel like I am going to vomit at the site of food but I need to eat and drink large amounts of water. I wish I was a fish, life would be much easier. I need to hire a maid to do all my house work, when I woke up this morning it looked as if a giant tornado hit my house, I'm so embarrassed. Addyson is too spoiled I started putting away her summer clothes and I went to Burlington this weekend and ended up buying fall/winter dresses. I am thinking I am finally going to STOP IT. I need to, its driving me crazy, it honestly is, when I am an emotional wreck, I think buying things makes me feel better, which it just makes me depressed since I have no money after. I have a headache just thinking about it. I am sooo glad Mandy is back here but it's hard to do anything since I am soo sick. I seriously feel like I've been beat to death with a baseball bat. Did I mention once I pass the stone/stones I will have to be on medication for the rest of my life and I can't have tea, soda, coffee, or CHOCOLATE. (Chocolate & Tea are my FAVE!) I think my body is destine to make me miserable. & on top of it today I just want to cry for no apparent reason. I can't believe Addyson is still sleeping! She is growing so fast. The other day she wore her big girl shoes, NiKeS!

Addyson 3 months

Addyson is getting so BIG! When I weighed her all by myself I got almost 13 lbs. She has a doctors appointment te 23rd of September. Can't wait to see how she is growing, which I already know, big and healthy!

Tutu & Headband

Today I was super sad so I need something to keep my mind off of all the nonsense that has been going on for the last few days. Addyson and I went to Wal-Mart looking for tulle, I thought they weren't going to have any but I found a slim selection. I ended up buying black, pink, white and I threw in some zebra print ribbion. I didn't know how much it was going to be but it cost me like $5 to do this when if you order it online its like $40. I didn't know it would be as hard as it was, I had to start over once because it wasn't as full as I wanted it so I had to cut the strips in half and then redo the entire thing. I just created a headband to go with it. I wish the bow on the tutu was like the bow on the headband but oh well. I love it. I am thinking about doing a halloween one just for fun and a christmas one. I am so excited. I think I found another hobby. But note to self, you can't do anything when baby is awake.

Tutu's & Headbands.

So for the last month or so I've been obsessed with TUTU's and homemade headbands. I just learned how to make your own tutus. Let's just say I can't wait to start making them. I want to wait till I am able to go to Micheals, I might run out of patients and go to Wal-mart and get material. I was looking at different things at Wal-mart today for headbands. I found some cute things that I should have done in the beginning before making Addyson's gerber daisy one. I am excited. I don't know what I'd be like if I had a girl...

The LAST week of IDAHO & the FIRST WEEK HOME (almost)

The last week of Idaho we didn't do much we just waited around to see if anyone would call or come over to see Addyson. Well the answer to that is NOBODY. Besides my parents & my grandma Lohman. On Tuesday Addyson, My Mom, and I went to the High school volleyball game, we were a little nervous because of the loud noise from the buzzer, girls yelling, and crowd screaming, but she did good until close to the end. We decided to leave at the third match but I let Wyatt talk to his friends for a bit long and as I was coming back a school classmates mom was talking to my mom I didn't noticed her at first since she was sorta hiding behind my mom and I was just focusing on Addyosn since she was screaming mad, so I respectfully told the lady thank you for saying she is a cute baby, grabbed my daughter and decided to take her to the hallway since it was quieter there to see if she'd calm down and go back to sleep. Meanwhile, I guess while I walked away, the lady told my mom that I must be mad at her?? I just don't get it. I come back in and get the car seat to leave and she just gave me the NASTIEST look I have ever had in my life, not exaggerating. I didn't get it so I asked mom and she told me about me being mad. I just don't get some people. I think by forty years old its time to move on from high school drama. I honestly think my daughter is more important then putting her in a situation where she isn't comfortable, but cranky. The next day I just love seeing my old classmate and the woman carring on about it and name calling. I hope that I can learn from that and move forward in being a better person. Thursday, We went to Cheyenne's house where she has her daycare and hung out there for the day. I hope I can do it when I come back, it was actually fun, Chey always gives me advice and I love it, she is so helpful. Her two children are so beautiful and they have a great personality. I have lots of respect for the way Cheyenne handles things with kids, it has gave me some insit on my future goal of becoming a teacher and how to handle things. Friday I decided I'd finally go see my Grandma Lohman. She was all by herself since my grandpa went camping. I helped her get ready for the engagement party the next day and we just hung out and went out to dinner. Addyson loves it there, I think she knows her momma loves it there as well. The next day was a busy day, Saturday, my oldest cousin Stephan and his girlfriend now fiance, had their engagement party so we could meet her family. It was very successful, and we got to see our family. I wish everyone could stay longer but everyone had other obligations, such as my family, we had my other cousin (my stepdads side of the family) wedding reception. I thought I'd say by to some of my family members there as well. Little did I know that it gets super windy there and Addyson was ready to go home and get her jammers on. I didn't want to leave but I think it was best. I ended up finding out my sister-in-law showed up there late the night. (parents stayed out there) and I am a little upset since she told me she is always busy. Lets just say this entire trip made me sorta realize where us three stand. Addyson didn't get to see her Grandparent, Stuarts, very much, but I guess in the end its just what you make of it. You may not agree with how people do things but you just got to shake your head and move forward. I recently heard that Rhonda was sick, but I hope the DRs. found out what is wrong with her. Lisa took me home, I really wanted to say goodbye to my mom that way but since Lisa wanted to come here I didn't get to say goodbye to my mom the way I wanted, Instead my mom was half asleep. While Lisa was here we went shopping & site seeing. I had a good time. I am thankful she took time to bring me home, though. It was my birthday and it wasn't really how I wanted to spend my birthday but it worked. I am officially 20! I honestly just wanted to relax with my little family and unpack and get back into a routine with Addyson, but I am finally able to do so. It was nice just to be in my own home with just the three of us. Addyson is still sleeping through the night and I can't wait to find out how big she is. I went to Mandy's house yesterday and I was talking to little Connor and he was just smiling and looking at Addyson. As much of a lady Addyson is, she was just blowing spit bubbles. Yes, sadly, I think my baby girl is teething! (post pictures as soon as I can!)

I CAN'T WAIT to see my HUSBAND & FRIENDS

Tomorrow we are heading back to Oak Harbor, I will write more & add pictures when I get home. We are definitly ready to see DADDY! & back to our lives and of course see Mandy & her family. Ahh, I miss the things I take for granted so badly! I am sure going to miss my mommy, daddy, sissy, and my evil brother. :)