a little piece has been buried.

The One who has been there for me the most. :)

It's been almost 2 years since I've graduated, I know I'm a young girl, but it seems much longer. Everyone has changed so much in just those 2 years. Some moved away, far east, far south, or far west, some have tied the knot, some had babies, some are doing what everyone want them to do, and that is to get your college degree. As for me, I married my high school sweetheart who graduated a year before me, I was married two weeks before I graduated high school, I wasn't even married six months (just shy though..) before I found out we were expecting, do I regret it? No. I don't. I am very happy where I am at in my life. I have been with the same man for five years almost and married two of them. We are there for each other with whatever has been thrown at us. I am so thankful to have him, he has been there when nobody has been, even the people I have know for so long. The man I married chose to be a part of the United States Navy when I was 17 years old, I watched him sign five years of his life to the government, ever since then he has made not only his family proud but me as well. After we got married I became part of the Navy too. I might not be the one working on flight equipment, or getting yelled at by the Commanding Officer but what affects him affects me. We are in this together. But I never thought I would lose my friends that I've had since kindergarten because I married, I moved away, or because I became a mommy. Being married didn't push my friends away, they still kept in touch, they still called, or even text me late at night. When I became a mom, it's like they all died. Yes, A few called me after I had our beautiful girl, but after a few months, they slowly disappeared. Nobody text, nobody even facebooks anymore. I feel like everyone who once knew me doesn't anymore. I've changed into a better person because I am a mommy. Their silly things they do, I honestly frown upon. I don't mean to but I see things differently because I am now a parent. I am still young, but I feel wiser, more responsible. No, I'm not doing the "right" thing and going to college like everyone else it, but I can say I'm truly happy. I feel like my "old" friends think I'm dumb because I had a family first, some say they are jealous of what I have. Is it jealousy that is keeping them from being my friend? Maybe it was silly to think that I would have my friends from grade school, high school, forever? Everything that has happened in the last two years, I've learn that my real friends are friends that understand my life, my real friends are the ones who are calling me to see if my husband, my daughter, and I are doing alright. I didn't need a college education to learn who my real friends are, I just need real life.