maybe I shouldn't have vented?

Sometimes after I post something I think after a few days I shouldn't have posted that. But then again when you have only a 10 1/2 month old to talk to most of the time, I have to write things down, and unfortunately I use my blog. I wake up most mornings depressed, but then there are days like today where I wake up happy, the sun is shining, Addyson slept in till 8 or after 8 and I was awake before doing what I wanted to do, but then I start thinking and reality comes soaking back into my brain along with all the misery I've been feeling. I try to do as much as I can to take my mind off it, but I am by myself most of the time, therefore I can't help but think about all the bad things and I am so thankful for Addyson though, I really am, she is the only one keeping me sane. I don't want it to seem like I don't recognize all that our friends and family have done. Thank You.