& so it's Wednesday.....

Josh goes on leave today. I am excited to have him here to help me with things. I am a little mad that he left me to go hang out with his friends. I seriously was going to lose it. We talked for an hour, I didn't get anywhere. He's learning I guess as time goes on and so am I. Since Josh's mom's "depression" crisis, she didn't call him back. I just don't think I could ever leave Addyson on the deep end and keep thinking somethings wrong with me when there isn't. I don't know if this is their whole "I'm not crossing a boundary" thing, but its honestly ridiculous. They might contact him before we leave. I just need to move on from it but I just can't, I'm so angry. Mainly because I know they don't really care much about Addyson. I just don't understand why they wouldn't want to know how she is doing. My mom asks like EVERY DAY but that's just her. So we'll see if this trip is going to be gumdrops, lollipops, and chocolate trees. Then RUMORS play a part in this whole thing. My sister has recently adopted a rumor about herself. Apparently I am going to be an Aunt. Don't worry it's not true. That's just the bottom of the ice burg. She actually smokes weed all the time, even before school. She's baked constantly. Yeah, Josh's sister told me that one. I sometimes feel like its Josh's Family VS. My Family. Ya know? Especially since they use my family to watch their grandchild. I'm pretty sure my father (who doesn't get involved in anything what so ever) has seen Josh's nephew more than he has, ever. Don't get me wrong, Nicole (our nephews mom) and I have a better relationship than I thought we would ever have, but there are things I disagree with and I am sure she disagrees with things I do. There are somethings that I get with this famliy but this is one issue that I am never ever going to. It's one that bothers me, and has for many years. I just want to see where this trip leads us and hopefully the outcome will help me push past it. When I look at our little girl I am so overcome with JOY! She is the best thing that has ever came into our lives, and if they want to miss it that's their problem. As my mom would say "She knows who's the best grandma in the world," yes sadly she says that, she's head over heals for this drool machine!