"stressed" is "desserts" spelt backwards

This weekend didn't go as planned. We did have our scary movie night in honor of Halloween but I still felt that it wasn't enough. Josh's friend invited him to go to the movies to see Paranormal Activity 2 but we all went, once again I was buy myself taking care of Addyson. I don't mind it sometimes but I get lonely enough during the week. Not only was it one friend but one of Josh's co-workers which is also a female went to the movies with them as well. Talk about a downer, knowing my husband was practically on a "friend date" not only with a male but a female as well and I was stuck with Addyson. I gave up so much to be a mom and why can't my husband just give up a little more. Even if I didn't really want to see that movie because I hated the first one but still I just wanted a little more consideration. After they finally got out of the movie and my butt was practically stuck to one of the chairs in the food court I was a little more than upset by that point I was kind of mad. I did buy myself a cute American Eagle sweatshirt and I got the third degree on that one. On the way home I didn't know anything about the movie so I tried making conversation and NOBODY talked to me or answered me. I felt completely excluded. I had a picture in my head while I was getting spit up on my shirt that girl was having a lovely time sitting in the middle of two guys, and I was right. I shouldn't let it bother me I am sure if Josh would have a secret relationship with a girl by now it would have happened, but I just feel like I just don't think Josh understands how I feel even though I repeat it everyday to him. So after that, I felt a little depressed and started making all kinds of things. I made cupcakes w/ pumpkins, I made snicker doodles, and then I made sugar cookies and froze some of the dough for later. I am stressed (did you know stressed is desserts spelt backwards?) because I have so much to do and I have to do it all by myself. I feel like I should just put on a cap and start calling myself "super woman!" I am sure a lot of moms/wives feel this way. I better get use to it. So then SUNDAY comes and guess what, I am all alone with just Addyson. Josh just HAD to go play the new "Fallout" for playstation at his guy friends house. So Addyson was cranky I wanted a break and yet again I am right about how Josh can't handle Addyson. Five minutes and he was screaming for me to get her. I am just so tired of everything. I am not looking forward to going home and being close to his lovely parents. I stay over here and they can stay far over there. They haven't called to apologize, to see how Addyson is doing, all they have done is text Josh to tell him that his grandma fell, or he needs to get licenses for hunting or something like that, controlling? His grandma said that I was in his mom's radar, whatever that means. I just don't know what else I can do for these people. I am tired of trying. So when we are home Addyson and I are going to see the family that truly cares. Even my brother who is busy doing 15 year old stuff still takes time to care. So I end this post with the thought that I think it's almost time for Aunt Rose to come and visit, I can feel her coming, and that is probably why I am so emotional.