Have you ever just wanted to say out loud how much you HATE the military? I respect the USN and any other United States military but some of the way they do things is really shady. I've blogged recently about what is going in my life, yes I regret that I did that, because I have no idea who reads my blog, but then again, I got it off my chest. The C.O. and legal office here on base gave Josh two options, well I told Josh to get advice else where. We learned so much. We learned that the man responsible for all this is a liar, a pig, a disgusting human being. I don't know where in my heart I can forgive him, I will probably never forgive him. I would say I feel terrible for his fiance but in all honesty I don't, I just think she is stupid. She has the choice to leave, she should. (Again, I probably shouldn't be writing this). My body has been filled with even more anger than I have ever felt in my life. If Addyson wasn't involved I don't think it would be filled as much as it is. I feel like he has threaten my daughter. My beautiful girl doesn't deserve to be in this situation and neither does her hard working, outstanding daddy. It has amazed me the action that the people in the NAVY have taken on this certain incident. They have manipulated, interrogate, and humiliate a person, a family. A professional wiggling his nose in where it shouldn't be. I know times are hard, but I am so disgusted that they would do anything just as long as its the cheapest for them, but the worst for the (innocent) sailor. In the end, our little family of three, a military family we've been since day one, is saying goodbye to the USN. Goodbye to all the bull crap, goodbye to the performance they put on, the joke it has became. One of Josh's divisions said they were a family. Not one person has been there for us, instead they called names, they gossip, they treat us like we are a piece of crap on the bottom of their shoes. That isn't a family. They could care less about us or anyone else. The people that we did meet, that have been there for us since day one, those are the few rare people in the USN we have found that have had an impact on our lives. I'm thankful we have had an opportunity to meet such great people & their families. In the end, I hope Karma comes back and bites them a new one. Just sayin' . This whole experience has made me a stronger woman, I have learned, I have been through so much. I am still going through so much. Our parents, our families, our close friends, have been there for us, helped us, and I am so thankful for their help. Even when there are days I want to run in my moms arms and let the tears fall until I can't let them fall anymore, I can't do that, I have my own little girl, that I need to do that for and a husband who I need to keep it together for. I admit I have lost it a few times. But I'm thankful he has accepted what is happening and knows that God is probably opening us a better door, a door where our daughter deserves to be with her family, it's not worth being a part for 6 months to a year in a career where you are dong dangerous things and they threaten to take your pay away? Not worth it. People will talk but I know who my family is, I know who I am, I know who my real friends are, and I can honestly say half the people I know aren't anywhere close to a real friends. I sometimes confuse myself by the people I think who care and are my friend but really they are just the people who feed off gossip and love it and would say anything to hear it. I'm glad this has made me figure out who is for real.