happy thanksgiving

We made it to Idaho for the holiday. We weren't going to come home because we were scared to drive home but it wasn't as bad as we thought it was. Now it's the scariness of going home. They say its going to snow here in Weippe and then Saturday on the Pass. There isn't any snow here and I thought there would be lots of snow for us to play in while we are here. Josh and his dad went hunting this morning and I stayed at my families house. Josh made up some excuse that I get hot flashes so I can't sleep there but that is not true. Maybe tonight there will be room for me there. Paco is sure happy to see my dad and of course my mom. He loves sitting on dads lap. I've been a little embarrassed by my stomach it just sticks out there. Not as bad as it's going to be next time I come here. I better get ready for the yummy food. HAPPY THANKSGIVING.

I don't know if I am happy because Josh gets off work at One O'clock tomorrow or I am just in the Christmas spirit. The other day at Wal-mart i couldn't help myself but look at all the Christmas decorations. Josh wants to get a fake tree but I am not use to having a fake tree so I am going along with it but next year we are having a real tree since its going to be our babies first Christmas. All the decorations make me so happy. The different kind of bulbs and all the colors of lights. I think we are going to be more into this holiday than Halloween. It's just more important to us. Hopefully the dogs don't think its something for them to go to the bathroom on. I wish we could go home and see our families on the Thanksgiving break. The snow on the pass isn't looking very good to us so we think we should just stay home. I really miss my family. As much as I love living here it's to hard to be away from everyone we are close to. I feel that we are slipping away from our friends. They call us and ask us why we hardly talk, it's sad that we are all living our own lives now, which we understand, but we miss hanging out with everyone back in Idaho. I hope the doctor lets me know what I am having so we can go home in March instead of April, Just because I can't wait that long. I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving!

Team Jake!

I've been waiting and waiting to go see the Twilight Saga: New Moon. Tonight was the night I went and it was amazing. Mandy, Trista [Mandy's mom], and I stood in line, after we bought our tickets earlier, for about 40 minutes and finally it was time to indulge in all of it. But I have to say I am team Jacob. I was before I knew he was going to be absolutely gorgeous. I got so mad at Bella in the book but when I see it on screen I am just like her lost! Edward looked like he was a little sick. I loved it all though. I don't know why this movie is getting bad reviews. The downfall was the little junior high girls making weird noises and talking about strange things. I will definitely be buying this movie. I can't wait for the third one to come. Team Jake!

Belly Bumb & Craziness at the Stuart House.

This is probably either really embarrassing or normal. Lately I've been feeling like I am showing. I don't feel bloated any more, I feel normal. I thought I would send a picture of my stomach to my mom and see if she says OH its just fat or its a bump. The first thing she said is "ITS A BABY BUMP" of course I responded like "are you sure it isn't just a fat stomach?" So I am posting it as my "baby bump," and I hope it really is or I'm going to be more embarrassed than I am already. I told people at home I would post it so they could see me since they won't get to see me grow. Today Mandy and I might go to New Moon. I feel bad that I feel better and she is still having morning sickness. Not only has the baby bump subject been going around this house but like I do every morning I let the dogs out to go potty and get some fresh air. Well I let my little Paco back inside and I come down to chat with my mom this morning and look at Paco and he is wet. I thought it was just dew from outside. I picked him up and smelt his fur. It was PEE. The bigger dog, Calv, decided to pee on Paco. I lost it and ran for the bathroom and started throwing up. I usually can handle these things since I am a CNA and always have to pick up after the dogs, but after that I don't think I can handle it. Josh had to get out of bed and give him a bath. Its been so crazy around here today!

Morning Sickness Kicked Out the Door.

These last few day's I've been feeling great in the mornings and at night. I think the morning sickness went out the door, for now at least. I am glad I don't have to deal with that, I had it bad. I wish I was like my mom and could enjoy pregnancy and not get sick. I usually only feel sick when I am not getting enough to eat, so I am constantly eating. Today was my fillings appointment at the dentist. I got three fillings. It's been a while since I went and got all these things done. I am feeling better about myself but the bill, not so much. I can't wait for thanksgiving. I am so ready for some good food.

This week has been crazy. The weather has been really windy and of course there has been a lot of rain. It just amazes me how the waves splash against the rocks and water floods over the road, but not so much that it floods. I've been feeling a lot better which is a plus and I am getting antsy about the baby room, I just can't wait.

Ham Dinner & Game Night.

Today I wanted something fun to do with Mandy & Joe since they are always doing things for Josh and I. So when Josh and I got our groceries we decided to get a ham. We've been craving something different and ham, of course, so we got a huge ham. My mom helped me with the glaze through phone [I wish she was here or at least closer than nine hours]. Josh was so helpful, he made the potatos and I warmed up the beans. We also had a dessert, cheesecake, Josh's favorite. I was really nervous about the ham because I've never made one all by myself. Mandy & Joe brough sprite which really helps us pregnant girls' stomachs. Afterwards we watched Bride Wars on T.V., what was left anyways. To top off the night we played "The Game of Life," which was really fun to play with other people besides just josh and me. We don't really know who won because Joe kind of pulled a fast one on all of us and cheated but Mandy had an idea that he was when he came up with three million dollars. It was very fun. Even Brady was having fun. I love doing things with them, it's really nice. I am excited for Thanksgiving, but I wish I was with our families, I miss them a lot.

Things have been going really well. Mandy is back from visiting her parents so its nice to have her here to talk to. I was really upset about my friend thinking she was the one saying those things to people I don't really know, but it's not really something I want to dwell over. I want to enjoy life as much as I can. My family is finally understanding that the military comes first, which is really helpful and takes a little stress off of me and I am glad, because I don't want to push away that people that I care so much about. I feel embarrassed because my moods haven't been the best of me lately and people reading this probably think the worse. Sometimes its good to just breathe before I get too overwhelmed. Today has been a good day. It's Veterans Day. Josh got the day off which is nice to have a day where its the middle of the week to relax. Mandy & Joe came with us to Applebee's to eat lunch. The veterans got a free meal. Brady is getting so big. I just can't believe once I have a baby that he or she is going to grow so fast. He [Brady] has the cutest personality and he does the most funny stuff. Makes me feel so much better. The worse part about today I woke up with this huge zit sorta inside my nose. It hurts so bad. I really need to go get some more face wash for night time.

First Ultrasound

Josh and I went to the doctors appointment today. It was my eighth week and that ment that I got to see the baby and the little heart beat. I wasn't sure what they all had in mind for this appointment but I was soon surprised. I was sure glad that Josh was there with me, I was so embarrassed but I am still alive. They O.B. had the ultrasound machine in the room, so it wasn't one with a Radiologist, She first did one using the one for your lower abidimen. We instantly saw the little baby with that. It was perfect. You could see its head. At least I hope it was it's head and not its whole body. I wish I got a picture of it then. Then she put one where the sun don't shine, ever, and it was so uncomfortable but once I saw the baby on the screen it was heaven. The little heart was pounding a million miles per hour. It was truly a blessing. Around 31 weeks to go!

I'm really getting tired of people asking me what I am doing with my life. Now that I am having a baby everyone on earth is concerned if I am going to college and when I start. It's not really anyone business but I am going to say when I feel like going I will go, when I figure out what I want to do with my life besides be a mommy and a wife to someone who's job doesn't exactly let me do a whole lot, I'll go. I really would like to be going now, but again, my husband's job comes first. I signed up to the military too when I said "I Do" I really just want to enjoy being a mommy for a while. Its something I've waited for and now I want to do. I've accomplished enough to satisfy me for a while, so when I want to accomplish a degree I will do that. I know its going to be the best thing for the family but can't I just kick back and take a breath without being ashamed of myself.
I know it must be the ragging hormones that come along with the wonderful world of pregnancy but sometimes I feel that the one person I trust most is the one that I can't trust. I need to come out and ask but I want that person to come out and tell me. But if the person doesn't want to tell me than I am fine with it because she is going to be my bestfriend no matter what happens because misunderstanding isn't going to change much. It happens all the time.