One week down...

It's been over a week now and I am still holding on. I seriously thought that I would be a wreck but I have an amazing family { The Johnson's } who have been letting me bug them. I hope I'm not bugging' them but I am thankful they have let me come over to keep my mind off of Josh. Yesterday I had to go to the doctor's because I was having breast pains. I thought something was unusual since I was still producing some milk. I know I am not pregnant. There is seriously something weird going on. They gave me an exam to make sure it wasn't cancer, at my age, more than likely wouldn't happen. Then they took my blood and then the end of this month I am getting an ultrasound done on it. I feel like its a throbbing' pain that I can't handle sometimes. Other times its controllable. The doctor said if the results give them the way to one direction which is surgery. Just what I need to go through when my husband is gone. Deployment is going to suck. Josh gets to come home from Silverdale, and goes to San Diego. I'm just gonna get use to the idea that I'm going to be alone for the next two years.