sorry I'm not there..

As days go by without you here
I'm sorry sister I'm not there.
My heart is there with you
and my arms are squeezing you tight.
I want to take away all your pain
and tell you its gonna be alright.
by; me

My little brother wrote me and my mom tried calling to tell me my sister lost her baby Thursday night. She was four months along, we have no idea what could have happened, but it had to be all in God's hands and he must have had a reason. She hasn't talked to any of my family about anything. I can't stop crying, I called her last night and waited for hours for her to call but she never did, I fell asleep waiting. I talked to many people most of her boyfriends family. If the baby doesn't pass through naturally they have to go back on Sunday. I am mad at the doctor for not taking care of my sister better, just letting her walk around with her dead baby inside her and be in pain. I want to drive home right now, but I know I can't. I'm so miserable. I love her so much and I hope she knows that. I feel terrible that we got in a little fight the other day. I wish I never put any stress on her about moving back home where its safe, I wish I just gave her more space than I already did. I'm just going to wait for to call me, that way I am not bothering her but I am so scared and worried.