break down and cry.

I love my little girl so much and it breaks my heart that she is so sick. Her lungs sound as if they are just filled with a load of mucus. I tried to get her into see her dr. but I just call the Tri-Care line and they really suck. They said it would be two weeks & I should just go to Urgent Care. I don't like the drs. at U.C. so I rather not unless I feel like its a must. Ashley told me to call my drs. nurses like she does but I don't know the number. I wish she'd just get better already. I can't deal with anymore stress in my life. My sister finally talked to me, I just want her to be happy, and I can't say if she is with her boyfriend, she is feeling crummy, and I just want to go give her a big sister hug and kiss her head and snuggle, I miss her so much. I wish I didn't live so far on the west coast. My mom is so worried about her. Everyone is. I just wish she'd see that but right now I know she needs some rest and hopefully her dumb boyfriend isn't making her go places. Who really knows. I'm just really upset. I just want everyone to be happy, but you can't be a people pleaser, it isn't easy. I just want to go home and see if everything is alright these last months will fly by but slowly to me :(