Just Considering...

Last night Josh went out the ENTIRE night and didn't get home until 10 am this morning. I dont know who would be ok with their husband and the father of their child to do this. Well I am tired of him saying he didn't get to do anything so I go mad and went to get my WIC and I hated that I had to do that all by myself with Addyson, she is getting to be a heavy girl to carry around. Well, when I got back he was basically telling me he wasn't going but telling his friend he was. I just couldn't sleep after he left all night I was so angry. They didn't even go out to the "club" they have here on the island until 10pm and he left at 6 pm. I shouldn't complain because I love taking care of my daughter and giving her the best I can, but I want him to be there too! Especially when he has the time to be. So when he got home it wasn't a pretty day here. I am still irritated because even though he shopped with me he is SLEEPING and I don't think going to a club and drinking till 4 am is a good excuse to be tired. I would love to see him actually be a parent. I am almost considering moving back to Idaho. - Lewiston area more than likely. I hope he changes we have had the worst couple months ever, on our relationship. Sometimes maybe "young and in love" isn't what it's cut out to be. ya know? We have a lot of working to do. I really think I dwell on the negative before praising the positive. I am just glad I have so much support from my family & my friends!