Today was the longest day of my life. I decided that I would let Josh have a dog finally because if i didn't he wouldn't STOP bugging me about it. I really didn't want him to get a new dog because I knew he just wanted to fill the hole where Bear once was. We ventured to Port Townshed where we discovered that the Ferry took FOREVER to get on both ways. On the way back it took us four hours of waiting for a spot to cross the ocean blue. I think the whole trip wasn't as fun as I wish it was. We ended up getting a CHOW CHOW, nothing against them but I don't know how I am going to handle all the shedding of the black hair. For goodness sakes, his hair is as long as mine. Plus on top of it I feel like I am going to bust out in tears. I am not happy. I am just sad. Sometimes I wonder if my "love of my life" or my "husband" understands that he need to stop WASTING MONEY on stuff JUST for him. Its like he can starve and just be go lucky if he has what he wants. I want out sometimes, but I am in this for the long hard road. Maybe tomorrow will be brighter. If I can get over the SMELL of the CHOW CHOW.