Why is moving so stressful?

I feel that my life has just been one stressful mess for the last five months. We're moving out stuff just to Idaho for a month or two and to get the NAVY to move us is like pulling teeth. I am not looking forward to moving again to where Josh's job is. Sometimes I don't understand why this is happening to us, it shouldn't be happening to us.

packing.

This weekend we are trying to pack up the house enough to make it look clean enough for when we have our pre-inspection. So far we just got our room done. If you ever were to see our room you'd be like so this is where you hide all the mess. It was terrible. Josh's closet had so much stuff shoved into it it took forever to go through it. He threw away a lot of old uniform stuff, which I am glad he did, I didn't want to see anything that was from boot camp any more. Addyson slept in til 8 this morning. She was up way late. The Darlingtons & a couple of their friends came to Oak Harbor to say goodbye and just to have a good time. We went out to dinner at Flyers. I never been to that restaurant. It's a brewery. Of course Josh and the guys had a few of their brewed beers. Josh said that its way thicker than a Coors. He had a hard time swallowing it. I heard it was expensive but its like going to any other sit down restaurant. {I mean it's not as fancy as Applebees *Wink* [inside joke]} Ashley wanted to take Cassidy to the pool so us girls went to the pool while the guys went to a bar in town to play pool. Addyson & Cassidy had a fun time. But 9:30 is to late for babies to go to sleep. After we were done the guys were out but Josh came home with us. I said goodbye to Ashley. She has became a good friend to talk to and hang out with, I wish we would have bonded sooner than a year ago. I am going to be really sad saying goodbye to the Johnson's. {I'm dreading that part, honestly, but it's just a "see ya later."} That is why packing today has been so hard for me. This house was our first house, I remember the first day/night I was here. I remember when we found out we were expecting. The times we had good family & friends over, and when we brought our little girl home. Memories that will be with me forever. I don't want to move deep down, I really love it here. I'm going to miss the sound of the ocean, the smell of it, and the harbor. This town has been wonderful, I know we've had some bad memories here, but they make the good ones all the more to cherish. So I better suck it up and continue to pack.

July 1st; we're free.

Josh's last day being in the NAVY is July 1st. He will be a free man! And just because he is getting discharge doesn't mean he isn't getting his benefits. They gave him general with honorable, just like he would have got if he was to do the rest of his term. So far things are good. We get to have Dad home, and I don't have to be a single parent. I am excited to see our families, but I hope they keep the drama away from me, that's the last thing we need. I'm excited for Josh to start his new job. If he doesn't like it, now he can fall back on just going to school, even though he has no clue what he wants to go to school for. I'm going to be of course stressed because I am the biggest worrier you'll ever meet. I hate not having a plan. I love to follow rules, because I am scared to get in trouble. Our future may not be planned right now, I just want to be happy again! And I am close to being there!

$125 or $50? Stupid phones!

Well, instead of canceling a line on our cellphone plan, which would be $125, we finally got some answers and got my cellphone ordered! I hope it last longer than this one did. So if you know my cell number our home number will officially be gone after Sunday! I can't believe our first home phone number will be just a memory now. I loved our land line. I'm glad Josh got it all straighten out with our insurance and of course Verizon.

Grams.

Josh's Grams went in for surgery at noon. She called before she went in. I wish I got to talk to her, at least I did last night. She has a very short chance of not making it out of this surgery. But she is a fighter, and I have no doubt that she will make it out. We love you!

house inspection

Just for the recorded I am so happy I will NEVER have to live in base housing ever again. They are being a little easy on us since we are getting out of the military but if not I think I'd be a stress messed even more than I am now. They want this house to be perfect, and just a reminder this house was built in the 1970s! I am working on my kitchen trying to make it perfect, and I keep running into dilemmas. Josh's bright idea by saving the wood from getting wet he thought putting down this foam stuff would protect the wood in the cupboards, but no, it just stuck to it and once i ripped it off, most of it stayed on the shelf. So I've been working all day to get it off. I finally painted underneath the sink and a big puddle of water leaked from our lovely pipes, made it all a mess again. So then I fixed it, and next thing I know is our fan is head first blowing on the shelf, messing the paint up again, so I was about to give up and let Josh deal with it, but I think I have it under control. Today has not been our day!

dirty, wet, and fun exploring weekend.

This past weekend Josh, Addyson, and I all decided to go say our goodbye's to the Darlingtons. They live in Lake Stevens, Wa. We left late Friday and we didn't get there until around 4 pm. We had a BBQ, helped with the horses, and road four wheelers. Josh and I didn't get on the horses, Me, I was a little sore from tanning, and I think Josh was just scared. Ok, he probably wasn't. We all had an eventful night, one of the horses ran through their fence they made and ended up hurting herself. These horses are getting broke (I think thats how you say it) to ride. They have these big dogs, and I was on my way to check on Addyson and one of them were chewing on their bone. I happen to be a few feet from him and he just snapped at me, I thought it was the end of me! I was so scared. This is why I have a chihuahua who weighs roughly 5lbs. The next morning we all got bundled up since it wasn't sunny and wasn't raining, just a little chilly, to go see the ice caves. The ice caves we covered with snow that fell from the mountain, but we got to see all these beautiful waterfalls. Addyson loved it. She rode in her wagon, and it did pretty well going through parts of the trail that had snow on it. After we were done there we were all starving so we stopped at a little store, that was basically a house with a store in it. It was so strange. Josh and I bought muffins, like the costco muffins, to eat. Then we all decided to go on more trails around, and we went on a trail that led to a lake, that was frozen, and some weird people were camping out not to far from the lake, they were crazy. We decided to make a pit stop at the falls in Granite Falls. They were beautiful and the smell remind me of the Northfork back home. It was a fun weekend exploring more of Washington. I'm going to miss this place. I wish we could go to Forks. ;) Maybe we'll come back.

we're stupid

So Josh and I bought these Vibram FiveFinger shoes; they are really comfy and it's all natural. Josh is overly obsessed with these and while our NEX has them so much cheaper than REI we bought them thinkin' we are staying in the military. WRONG. Everytime we buy one thing that is expensive something bad happens. So we're kind of regretting it a little. But we love them.

From Mandy to Addyson

Mandy got Addy this really cute hair clip made from her friend Brooke who is from Utah. I think it's the cutest thing ever. I really will have to steal this idea from Mandy's friend for future hair accessories! Thanks Mandy, we love it!

life is good?

Yes, Life seems to be good? I just am happy I won't have to have my husband on a boat (ok ship whatever) for the next year without ever seeing us. I think these people who have no idea what they are doing and are trying to beat around the bush in another words, are doing my family a favor! A favor, yes, because Josh will be around for Addyson's 2nd birthday, Addyson's 2nd fourth of July, Addyson 1st time being at the county fair, MY 21st Birthday, and basically all Addy's 2nd round of holidays and many more. As for my stress level, it's actually pretty good right now. Ask me in about a week and I'd probably be saying different. I'm stressed about money mainly, because that is what the military wants is for us to pay them to kick us out. (If you are military you might know what I am meaning there) Josh is probably getting honorable discharge, he doesn't deserve any less, As for the other guy, I honestly hope a bird comes and poops on his fat head. Yes, I said it, with lots of anger.

You want to know why I'm extremely excited besides the point that I get to see all my family & friends from Idaho? Josh already more than likely has a job! He'll be making almost 5,000 a month which is great! Basically $27 an hour. But we still have to get an interview and everything but so far the guy basically said he'll hire Josh on. Josh said his goal is to get through a year of working for them, but if he is making money and it isn't to stressful for Josh, Heck, I'll work there :D Fingers are tightly crossed that he will get this job, or else we'll be stuck at my grandparents house longer, which we both don't want, we want our own place, space, bathroom, bedroom. Ya know?

I am so lucky to have the support of my family & Josh's and our close friends. This is a blessing in disguise. Yes, it's going to be hard at first, but we can finally be in one spot for however long WE want to. And we can be in one area long enough to get a degree of some sort. I'm having my sad moments, I don't want to leave my good friend Mandy & her family, which I adore. They are truly amazing people and I'm so so so blessed to have them in my life. {I say that alot, but its true!}

changes.

Eight hours ago we were looking for a place to live, where Josh is suppose to get stationed. Eight o'clock this morning Josh was told he was being separated from the Navy. I just want a stable home, a stable life, and not to always be on my toes about worrying if my family is going to be alright. I am sure Josh is feeling the same. He is doing everything in his power to get his case heard. He has a meeting on the 23rd to see what else can be done. It sucks when EVERYONE is just now realizing Josh wasn't involved in this childish act that happened four months ago. In all honest, this military life, SUCKS!

daddy's home.

After a week in anticipation of waiting for Josh to finally arrive home, he got here early Friday. Luck for us, the Johnson's love us enough to take Addyson so we could go to dinner in Burlington & to top the night off Costco for diapers. I am relieved that we have diapers for a while, annnnndd of course to have my husband home. Saturday was a beautiful day, I have never broke a sweat walking from the car into Walmart in such a long time. Because usually its not 72 degrees. We went to the NEX and Josh bought himself a pair of Vibram fivefinger shoes. They are suppose to be good for you, I personally love them because I feel like I am barefoot. (I can't wait to be able to buy myself TOMS, they are my new love, thanks to Mandy :) ) After that we went to the beach and soaked up the sun, took Addyson home for a nap, and then we were off to the deception pass for a hike. I love the trails they have there. We also sat on the beach and we ended up having to leave because the tide was rolling in. Addyson almost got soaked she walked down to the water and this huge wave came and I was fearing for her life, you know how many kiddos have died lately from drowning? To top of the night I finally got to take a relaxing bubble bath and watch movies in bed. Sunday, we went to the park and then bought a pool for Addyson because we wanted to play in the water it was so hot out. I could possibly say I had one of the best days/weekends of my life. I am so happy to have my husband home, I feel like a different person, I feel alive again, that I woke up from a nightmare finally. There are still things we are dealing with but with our family and a few great amazing friends, we'll make it through. I'm so blessed to have a healthy baby girl, well toddler, and strong husband, and amazing beautiful friends.